oh, you afraid to get support?
you should be scared
you ever ask for help before
and it just isn't fuckin there?
they give you every reason not to speak
like, we don't talk about that stuff
you want the world to know you're weak?
when I was growin up, now that was rough
you probably haven't prayed enough
you keep that shit inside
don't ever let it show
well, Jesus Christ, I'm only nine
how was I supposed to know?
I'm countin numbers in my head, man
tryna make em even
was it somethin that I said, man?
why the fuck you up and leavin?
but that's what happens when you tell a friend
it's always a mistake
you wanna talk to them again
you better keep it fake
for everybody else's sake
cause you don't wanna burden no one else
nah, just go on hurtin, maybe go and hurt yourself
that should get em talkin, make em come around and say
hey, man, I know things are crazy, but it's gonna be okay
you just gotta hang on one more day
one more impossible day
another hospital stay
gee, I wonder what the doctor'll say
cause the doc can talk a fine game
but a pill can't kill this kind of pain
and they say I'm insane
you want me high on meds forever
can you prescribe my family back together?
fuckin whatever
you ask me one more time how it makes me feel
I think I'll choke on it
cause if I'm bein real
I'd rather drink and smoke on it
yea, I know I'm in that shit too deep
and everyone can tell
but hey, it helps me get to sleep
so what the hell, I might as well
and if I wanted to, no lie, I could go without it
you want some more truth? let's talk about it
cause you swear that you care
but I really doubt it
hey, you got a problem, man, you can't ignore it
if you need some help, I think you gotta ask for it
well, shit, I never thought of— fuck you, I can't afford it
let me take a minute, think about what I need
how bout the water bill and the kids I gotta feed?
walkin on the streets, you know what I found?
people talkin to themselves, sleepin on the hard ground
I hope you gotta lotta love
there ain't enough to go around
but keep pretendin it's okay
and shit's fair
we ask for help every day
it just isn't fuckin there
-x2A